The Mama Perspective | Mum Blog

I read a quote the other day that said: “Being positive doesn’t mean you have to be happy all the time and ignore reality, it means that trusting even on hard days, you know that better ones are coming.”

It really hit me because I find myself getting back into a hole where I just feel low. I can’t always explain it or pinpoint why, but it gets me more upset because I think I’m going backwards. People might not understand how I can be down when I have a job, a husband, a son, and a house to call our home, etc., but I’m human, and I’m still going to feel the way I do. It doesn’t mean I’m not grateful or love my family. They are everything to me.

Too many times I’ve started a sentence with “I wish…” but, to be honest, I should be trying to make the most of every single little thing now. There will be days that are tougher and more draining than others, but I owe it to myself to take a step back when I feel the pressure building up. Like I said earlier about not always understanding why I feel the way I do, it’s just a part of who I am. On some occasions, I’ll struggle more than others to overcome the dullness where I feel like a grey cloud has come over me. As for the others, there are brighter days, and they will always outweigh the dark ones.

So, whenever I feel low, I need to remember that it’s okay. And I have to acknowledge the emotions I’m going through to be able to challenge my thoughts. Better days are always on the horizon.

I’m a happy person generally, but I do put myself down an awful lot. The level of sadness I feel when I look at parts of my body—I don’t know, I just hate myself in certain photos and have become very self-conscious. I know it’s not good for me, but as the saying goes, you are your own worst critic, right?

It really does make me wonder if hypothyroidism has been a factor in the ups and downs I’ve had for a lot of years now. After being borderline for so long with many symptoms to being diagnosed after I had my little boy in 2021, my emotions have gotten stronger. But having my son in my life has made me realise how important it is to take care of myself.